I need a Ponstan drip...

I’m having this bad attack of migraine. I can almost feel my white hairs popping out. I worry too much. I hardly worry about me. But when it comes to the children… I fret myself crazy. I lose sleep, have anxiety attacks and what comes after that, is my mood swings!

This is the time I wish I was a child again, so that I can run off to Mak and be comforted of all the devils and ugly creatures. Worst when today’s my birthday and I’ve to remind myself that I’m now 33 years old and I have Opi and Isya to care for.

I’m bothered about the new maid. Her first time in Malaysia and she hasn’t got a clue what I’m saying. Aren’t they supposed to at least know some ‘easy’ Malaysian words? Maybe because Emi talks like us. My new maid is rather slow and needs everything to b explained to her in details…maybe I’ve been too long with Emi. Bottomline is, I hate changes.

How am I going to leave the children, Isya especially, with her…home alone?

Last night, Opi said something to me. For a 7-year old child who hates school and screams uncontrollably, he is one sharp-witted fellow. As I was changing Isya’s pyjamas, he held my hand and said “Mummy…don’t worry-lah…nanti Opi tolong tengok-tengokkan Isya bila mummy gi kerja…”

Thanks Opi!

And I worry for Isya’s hair. She burnt her scalp while playing firecrackers in her Habib’s house on Sunday. It happened so fast and under adults’ supervision. A small speck of the bunga api landed on her hair and somehow, the tiny speck grew bigger and razed off a handful of her hair. Despite everyone’s effort, her scalp burnt a bit. The size of a 20-cent coin. Isya is extremely vain of her Avril Lavigne-like hair. Now the burnt mark is rather obvious as it is really at the top of her head.

Will the scalp be better? Will the hair grow again? What is it doesn’t and she’ll be scarred for life? What would I say if she’s all grown up and ask me, why didn’t I do anything?

I worry for Opi’s front tooth. Apparently, its not growing correctly and I may need to see a pediatrician-dentist to get a clearer diagnosis of his teeth. Do I need to do this now? Can’t I wait until he’s 12 and send him to an orthodontic surgeon?

I worry so much…in fact I worry too much!