My Fort is Crumbling

Robert Greene's 48 Laws of Power

Make your Accomplishments Seem Effortless
"Your actions must seem natural and executed with ease. All the toil and practice that go into them, and also all the clever tricks, must be concealed. When you act, act effortlessly, as if you could do much more. Avoid the temptation of revealing how hard you work – it only raises questions. Teach no one your tricks or they will be used against you."

This principle is definitely killing me inside out! There's a huge grey area between trying to be a Superwoman and to try and act nonchalant with the work and still being able to deliver...sigh. And right now, I'm treading on thin ice between the two. This is wearing me out...

How much more can I stand before I yell for help?

Will people look at me differently if I do?

Do Spoil the Rod

Old Malay people say "sayang anak, tangan-tangan kan". Or the English saying - Spare the rod, spoil the child. At which point of loving a child, does the child turn into Sazali, in P Ramlee's Anakku Sazali?

You love your children, no doubt. But will you spoil them? I buy Isya sweets everyday before I come home from work. If I miss a day, she'll throw her tantrums. Has she become a spolit brat? Over sweets?

Can the love a parent be repaid?
Susah senang from baby...the birth, the late night feeding, the diaper-changing, the colic, the cries, the fever, the sneezes, the throw-ups, the schooling, the tutoring, the kissing-the-hurts-aways......

Sekoyan emas pun tak boleh bayar.

Sometimes as a parent, we love our children to bits. And deep inside us, we hope that they will repay us back with their own unconditional love.

Sometimes they do....sometimes they don't.

Mak kata bila dah ada anak sendiri, then baru tau...the love and the pain.

Kahlil Gibran - You may give them your love but not your thoughts, for they have their own thoughts. You may house their bodies but not their souls....